Keeping the Faith

Yesterday, Darren came to visit me at school, and this past Friday was our 1 year, nine month anniversary. We got to see Harry Potter (which was amazing I must say, and a little bittersweet). After that, we went to a grocery store to get some food and stuff to make s'mores. They were delicious I must say. But just having that time with him and cuddling on the couch, I knew that I want to be with him. I always feel that way when we're together. Whenever I see him I just know that I'm meant to be with him.
He's a total sweetheart to me. As a surprise, he made me two clay butterflies, painted and all. He told me that he feels that butterflies symbolize our relationship. I was unsure of what he meant by it, until I looked up butterfly symbolism. Transformation is the main symbol, but another one is faith. He and I will be going through a lot of change in the coming years, and we will grow to become a better version of ourselves. During that time, it is important to keep the faith in our relationship strong. We have to stay strong and trust each other in order to make this work. Yes, there have been times where I wanted to give up, and he won't let me. He knows we're meant to be, and he continues to remind me. I do worry about the changes that are about to come. I know that there are possibilities of everything changing between us, but if we do end up with what we planned, then it will be worth it.
Yesterday, I finally got him to understand the importance of us waiting a few years after he comes home to get married. He's realized that to have the wedding we want, we need to save up money, and it's difficult to do so if we're both in school in a different state and with part time jobs. Luckily, he'll be done with school just as I am finishing up so we can both be in the workforce at the same time. I feel that it is important for us to have some stability first. I don't want to spend the first couple of years in complete debt and continuing to request student loans to pay for everything. It's just too much for us to handle with being students. I'm just glad that we're finally on the same page about this. This helps me know that we can work this out. I know that we will be together for about six years before finally getting married, but I know we're not ready now, and we won't be ready immediately when he returns. However, this is what is right for us, and I know he can get through it.