Precious Time

This past week has been stressful and exhausting to say the least. And unfortunately, my waiting to know when Darren will be leaving has been extended another two months. I don't want to go into complete details about what has happened, but needless to say, there are now some trust issues between his parents and myself, and that is all I'm saying about that.
Now, we're just picking up the pieces of what has happened and trying to continue on with our lives. We're looking forward to seeing each other in December when I come back home and we can celebrate the holidays together.
I never thought I would end up preparing to wait for a guy going on a mission. I never thought I would ever date a Mormon. I'm not selective in dating when it comes to religion, but it was just something I never expected. But these things happen and you just have to roll with them, especially when you know that this person is right for you. It isn't easy to have an interfaith relationship, but we manage. We respect what each other believes, even though we may not agree with it.
However, there are those moments when I do wonder if what I'm doing is right. Should I be waiting for a guy who will be gone for two years and totally miss out on some of the biggest moments in my life? It may be selfish I know, but with my life I feel that I should be selfish somewhat. It's not that I want to be greedy, but I know that time is very precious. Every second that passes by is a second that we're closer to death. Yes it is a dark thought, but it is the truth nonetheless. You're closer to death now than when you first read this post. I don't mean to be a Debbie Downer, so I'll just get to the point of all this.
We can't take time for granted, and I want all of my time possible spent with Darren. He means too much to me and I don't ever want to be without him. I know he has to do this, and it will help him grow up as a person, but I want to physically be there, and not just be a letter once a week. I want us to grow together by doing things together and getting to know each other. We've been there for each other for every major event that has happened ever since we've known each other, and I don't want that to stop.
I finally found the one person that I want to be with the rest of my life, and I don't want to let him go. But I have no choice in this, so the next best thing is to be supportive of what needs to happen, even if I don't agree with any bit of it. Marriage is about compromise, and since I want to marry him, I might as well begin now.