My Love

There really hasn't been much to report lately. I haven't seen Darren ever since I was home, which has been almost two weeks, and I've been busy with school starting up and getting everything ready. Yesterday has marked our 22 months, and today it's approximately 670 days. I cannot believe we have been together this long. We've had our lows; we've had our highs; we've had everything to deal with. And we're still together.
Honestly I can't see it getting better than him. He has been the most absolute sweetheart to me, even at times when I haven't deserved it. He supports me in my endeavor to becoming a physical therapist. He completely understands that I will most likely move out of state for school, and he is even willing to follow me wherever I go. He's my pillow when I need comfort, my tissue when I cry, my clown when I need laughter, my knight in shining armor when I need protection. I could continue on how much he means to me, and how much he does for me. I honestly don't know how I got so lucky with him.
I really don't deserve someone like him. I don't want to go into details, but I have not treated him so well. Let's just say that when I get mad, it gets worse before it gets better. The fact that he wants to stay with me no matter what, it makes me feel a bit undeserving of his love. He needs to be treated well, but he wants to be with me, so I have to change how I am. My anger is hard to control, and because of it, I have hurt him, which I never want to do. I love him to no end, and I do hope he sees that.
I've been working on a blanket for him ever since May, and I finally finished it. I think it looks good, and I think that he'll like it. I want him to take it on his mission with him so he'll always have something personal that I made just for him. I never made a blanket for any guy, so I hope he knows just how special he is to me. I don't know where I would be without him. Not only is he the love of my life, but he's my best friend. He's the person I talk to about everything, and he's always there to listen.
When I'm with him, it's like magic, especially when he kisses me. I seriously get a high from his kisses. I forget where I am and what I'm doing, and I keep wanting more. His hugs comfort me and make me feel safe. And he gives the best massages I've ever received. I love every single gift he has given me, and I've kept everything. I even still have ticket stubs from different movies that we've seen together.
Honestly I could go on forever talking about him. I wouldn't know where to end. All I can say is that I'm incredibly grateful to have him in my life, even if I haven't shown it much. I do hope he knows how I feel about him and that I'm committed to him now, when he's on his mission, and beyond that.